Re-

Today, I'm thinking about Jeans, Bag and Denim. But nothing beats Candy Wrappers! lots of Candy Wrappers.

Jeans, Denim and Bags are not that bad for Recycling. Let's Go Green!

Exuberance


According to Aunt Merriam, it means a Youthful Exuberant, for some, it is simply a Joyful Enthusiasm and an emotion of Great Happiness.

Why Exuberance?

Well, let's just face the fact. We are not getting any younger and time will come that we need to let go of the things that we used to do.

I am 24 years old, (Turning 24 this year) and this really starting to bother me. When I was 18, Learning and going to school was the biggest and the hardest of all the hardest responsibility a man could give to himself, intentionally. Maybe that's why I spent five years in College before deciding to be seriously serious on getting my grades on the hook. All the Free Booze and partying all night at the age of 19 was the best-est and my favorite regret of all, not until I reached 21.

"Age doesn't matter" ~Unknown

At the age of 21 - which, by the way, the year I was supposed to be marching my feet off and heading towards the University Gate (Exit Sign). Cut the Crap! You already know what comes next. Disappointments and Self-loathing came so fast, my guards are low and down that year and the only Person/s I can turn to was my Parents, my mom especially keeps on nagging "Ang Tanda Tanda mo na, Nasa College ka pa din?" My Mom is a Teacher, mind you. And I felt her angst.

Fast Forward, I Graduated. Mom and Dad were very Proud, their Daughter is now a Certified Bummer. I'm just kidding. I got a Job, my first real Job after attending some "My-time-and-summer-vacation-just-wasted-because-of-some-stupid-summer-Job" Seminar. Everything is Fine until now, but there's this one thing that I kept on arguing with myself. I am turning 24, No savings, No Partner, Earning but still broke, not yet contented, A so-so happy woman with Vices (Great!) and someone who learns to control every actions that was taken, but still poor in Decision Making. Exuberance means Youthful, a Joyful Enthusiasm and an emotion of Great Happiness.

Does this mean i lack Exuberance? or i did once have exuberance but worn it like two softened shoes.
Please bear with the manner i wrote this entry/blog, this has been my first since 2009.

I am Sorry.

this is my first blog after a few months that i have not been active with social networkings.

and still I dunno the real reason why i am writing myself a blog, it's not that i want people to read everything about it or maybe about me, somehow. It's just i want to share different sides of arguments, thoughts or whatever.

it's been months since i have my first REAL job ever, i Love the environment, the culture and the people working there. well, thanks to my big sister who introduced me to their company and let me be a part of it.

There has been a lot of things happened for the past few weeks after i got the job. I saw several pretty and cutest faces in the production floor, and i though maybe i could consider them as one of my inspirations to get in the mood for work. funny isn't it? (no it's not) too shallow.

but, (what the hell? every time i start writing with this blog, i realized that i am not so over with the past) well, yeah true! i have been mourning since the day HE left, (to work) i dunno if it's for good or whatever, maybe i just missed the feeling of checking-him-out thing.

i dunno what happened between us, maybe i do know, but too afraid to accept the fact that it ended right away before the story began. I was so infatuated, maybe until now I am, still I am. because i am not so over with it. i am not!

I downloaded a song "i'm Sorry" by Maria Mena and the lyrics really pushed it too far. The lyrics says that "and i though maybe if i kiss the way you do, you'll feel it too, he said "im sorry i am sorry".

it was the same line he used to say. And there's nothing i could do. nothing!

this is for now, you can hear a lot from me since i revived my old account and am still confused with my SOOOO many blogger and gmail and google accounts. i dunno how to get rid of the excess profile accounts. but imma figgure this one out,.

ciao!

i am eating my favorite chichacorn right now, and as i am chewing every bit of it i can't help but to think of someone. funny isn't it?? i don't know the real purpose of this blog thing, but anyway, it's my Blog account so, i can write anything i want right?. =]

as i was saying, i am eating my favorite chichacorn, i'm thinking what if i did the right thing 2 years ago?? what if nnaahhh. too much regrets.

Let me tell a story.

Maybe i'm falling in love. yes indeed, it's a very natural feeling that all of us can experience, but i might be falling in love with my c-u-i-. i don't know how, when and where it happened. All i know is that maybe i am falling in love. it's a weird feeling.

Maybe i was blinded with his natural superhero thing slash manly attitude, i was blinded with the fact that he is just being nice to everyone including me.

we were hanging out together for past 3 to 4 years now. I like being with him, plus, he makes me feel that i am a woman. i have never experienced this kind of uncertainty before. tsk.

i'm done with my chichacorn.

“A wise old owl sat on an oak; The more he saw the less he spoke; The less he spoke the more he heard; Why aren't we like that wise old bird?

im back.watch me!!!

it will take time, but rest assured it will be a blast.

haha!