Sunday, September 5, 2010

I am Sorry.


this is my first blog after a few months that i have not been active with social networkings.

and still I dunno the real reason why i am writing myself a blog, it's not that i want people to read everything about it or maybe about me, somehow. It's just i want to share different sides of arguments, thoughts or whatever.

it's been months since i have my first REAL job ever, i Love the environment, the culture and the people working there. well, thanks to my big sister who introduced me to their company and let me be a part of it.

There has been a lot of things happened for the past few weeks after i got the job. I saw several pretty and cutest faces in the production floor, and i though maybe i could consider them as one of my inspirations to get in the mood for work. funny isn't it? (no it's not) too shallow.

but, (what the hell? every time i start writing with this blog, i realized that i am not so over with the past) well, yeah true! i have been mourning since the day HE left, (to work) i dunno if it's for good or whatever, maybe i just missed the feeling of checking-him-out thing.

i dunno what happened between us, maybe i do know, but too afraid to accept the fact that it ended right away before the story began. I was so infatuated, maybe until now I am, still I am. because i am not so over with it. i am not!

I downloaded a song "i'm Sorry" by Maria Mena and the lyrics really pushed it too far. The lyrics says that "and i though maybe if i kiss the way you do, you'll feel it too, he said "im sorry i am sorry".

it was the same line he used to say. And there's nothing i could do. nothing!

this is for now, you can hear a lot from me since i revived my old account and am still confused with my SOOOO many blogger and gmail and google accounts. i dunno how to get rid of the excess profile accounts. but imma figgure this one out,.

ciao!

Sunday, January 3, 2010

i am eating my favorite chichacorn right now, and as i am chewing every bit of it i can't help but to think of someone. funny isn't it?? i don't know the real purpose of this blog thing, but anyway, it's my Blog account so, i can write anything i want right?. =]

as i was saying, i am eating my favorite chichacorn, i'm thinking what if i did the right thing 2 years ago?? what if nnaahhh. too much regrets.

Let me tell a story.

Maybe i'm falling in love. yes indeed, it's a very natural feeling that all of us can experience, but i might be falling in love with my c-u-i-. i don't know how, when and where it happened. All i know is that maybe i am falling in love. it's a weird feeling.

Maybe i was blinded with his natural superhero thing slash manly attitude, i was blinded with the fact that he is just being nice to everyone including me.

we were hanging out together for past 3 to 4 years now. I like being with him, plus, he makes me feel that i am a woman. i have never experienced this kind of uncertainty before. tsk.

i'm done with my chichacorn.